Who among us is not weary? It is Day 380, Year 2 of this mostly stay-at-home life we are living, still primarily virtually, though things are beginning to change: vaccines administered, return to school protocols drafted, outdoor dining is open again, more businesses are readying to reopen and try to recover from the year of losses, and deferred medical and dental appointments are on the calendar.
I have missed singing with you all. This week I have been singing this song, written by David Taylor and Paul Zach, as a response to meditating on Psalm 23, and I invite you to listen in and sing along; it is consolation for those who are weary and yet sense God's faithfulness in all.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kKUVLy__jv4
Oh, I hunger and I thirst
though I wander and I've strayed
I shall not want
I shall not want.
Though I'm weary
and I fall
Though I'm frail and I'm in pain,
I shall not want
I shall not want.
For I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Your goodness and mercy shall follow me
For I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Your goodness and mercy shall follow me
Your goodness and mercy shall follow me.
Though I sorrow and I grieve
Though I worry and I strain,
I shall not want
I shall not want.
Though I'm worried and I fear
though I suffer and I die
I shall not want
I shall not want.
For I will dwell in the house of the Lord
Your goodness and mercy shall follow me
Your goodness and mercy shall follow me.
You are faithful Lord
You are faithful Lord
You are faithful Lord
You are faithful Lord.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
As our sermon series has been focusing on leaning into Jesus during loss, grief, deep sadness and depression, I was reminded of some of Richard Rohr's words, from Everything Belongs :
"I think Jesus' primary metaphor for the mystery of transformation is the sign of Jonah (Mt 16:4,12:39ff, Luke 11:29). In Luke's Gospel passage in which Jesus tells us 'It is an evil and adulterous generation that wants a sign' (Luke 11:49), he then says the only sign he will give us is the sign of Jonah. As a good Jew, Jesus knew the graphic story of Jonah the prophet, who was running from God and was used by God almost in spite of himself. Jonah was swallowed by the whale and taken where he would rather not go. This was Jesus' metaphor for death and rebirth. Think of all the other signs, apparitions and oracles that religion looks for and seeks and even tries to create. But Jesus says it is an evil and adulterous generation that looks for these things. That's a pretty hard saying. He says instead we must go inside the belly of the whale for awhile. Then and only then will we be spit out upon a new shore and understand our call. That's the only pattern Jesus promises us...
We seldom go freely into the belly of the beast. Unless we face a major disaster like the death of a friend or spouse or loss of a marriage or job, we usually will not go there. As a culture, we have to be taught the language of descent. That is the great language of religion. It teaches us to enter willingly, trustingly into the dark periods of life. These dark periods are good teachers. Religious energy is in the dark questions, seldom in the answers. Answers are the way out, but that is not what we are there for. But when we look at the questions, we look for the opening to transformation. Fixing something doesn't usually transform us. We try to change events in order to avoid changing ourselves.We use learn to stay with the pain of life, without answers, without conclusions and some days without meaning. That is the path, the perilous dark path of true prayer."
May you help us, Lord, to practice this downward way, as we hold tight to you and listen for whispers of your Spirit.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord my whole life long. Psalm 23:6
"Goodness and mercy pursue me." God's friendliness and kindness will run after me and chase me down, grab me and hold me. The verb "follow" is a powerful and active verb. We are being chased by God's powerful love. We run from it. We try to escape. We fear that goodness, because then we are no longer in control. We do not trust such a generosity, and we think our own best efforts are better than God's mercy.
Lent is a time to quit running, to let ourselves be caught and embraced in love, like a sheep with a safe pasture, like a traveler offered rich and unexpected food. Our life is not willed by God to be an endless anxiety. It is, rather, meant to be an embrace, but that entails being caught by God...
See yourself as the sheep of the Good Shepherd, as the traveler in God's good valley, as the citizen at home in God's good house. You will, when you see truly, be free and joyous and generous, unencumbered and grateful...
Walter Brueggemann
A Way Other Than our Own: Devotions for Lent
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
With the past few weeks of the Wednesday reflection focused on holding onto Jesus in suffering and loss, these words from Rev. Garnaas-Holmes seemed timely and true.
He began to teach them
that the Human One
must undergo great suffering.
—Mark 8.31
Not just the one human, but The Human,
all of us, wherefore Peter wanted none of it:
plagues of virus and violence, hate and greed,
the lost mourned, futures mourned and dreaded,
great suffering, great suffering.
This is the Cross—no divine scheme,
but our septic rut,
how wrenched we are,
suffering suffered
and suffering caused,
the haunting claw,
the jaw yet to come,
world's mess and mangle,
deep well of anguish, deepest wail. This—
this is where the Beloved
joins us,
bears our wounds,
shares our trauma—
and asks us to follow.
So we open our brokenness,
our trembling selves,
to the Loving One,
who enters in,
seeps in the blood,
sleeps in our grave
with an arm around us,
and after time,
oh, after time,
with an arm around us,
begins to rise.
__________________
Steve Garnaas-Holmes
Unfolding Light
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Ash Wednesday (February 17th) marks the beginning of a Lenten journey when we remember Jesus’ ministry, his ability to heal and care for humanity, and at the same time, his passion, death and his glorious resurrection. In a “typical” year it might seem too soon to even talk about Easter on Ash Wednesday. However, I don’t know if that’s the case for 2021.
We have been in a sort of Ash Wednesday and Lenten journey for so long already. We have been on a journey in which we have witnessed pain, suffering and even death. More and more people dying due to COVID-19, political upheaval in the nation, racism, discrimination, violence, injustice, poverty and many other issues seem endless. We yearn for that Easter moment.
Before Easter happened two millennia ago there was suffering, pain, anguish, uncertainty, fear and death. Although pain and suffering are not God’s desire for us, they are an inevitable reality in this human life both then and now.
We say or hear on Ash Wednesday the remarkable phrase: “You are dust and to dust you shall return.” This year it can be an invitation for us to talk and grieve with our community about how awfully painful these days are. We are invited to do so, however, while keeping the other real fact in mind: Those words are said and heard on a day in which we also know that, even in the midst of suffering and death, Easter is also our reality.
May our Ash Wednesday proclamation and celebration this year be a glimpse of realistic hope that will help us to face together these excruciating and painful times. We know that Easter will come. Though tomorrow is uncertain, we do know that Christ is risen! He is risen indeed, Hallelujah!
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
...our people diverse and beautiful will emerge,
battered and beautiful
When day comes we step out of the shade,
aflame and unafraid
The new dawn blooms as we free it
For there is always light,
if only we’re brave enough to see it
If only we’re brave enough to be it
— Amanda Gorman, in “The Hill We Climb”
I was riven by Amanda Gorman's fiercely resolute poem for the inauguration, drawn not only by the images of light, but the way she lays out what the light demands of us. Where can we find light, she asks, among all the shade of events recent and distant? Look around, look inside. Strive, not for the perfect union, but "forge a union with purpose." Look not at "what stands between us/but what stands before us".
She demands we see ourselves, see each other, as aflame, always alight, always light. If you wish, she whispers, you can be all flame.
Jesus, Light of the World, shine upon us, and within us.
Shine the light of hope into our despondency;
Shine the light of truth into our world, and into our minds;
Shine the light of peace into places of division and conflict;
Shine the light of new possibilities into our stuckness;
Shine the light of joy and laughter into our boredom;
Shine the light of faith and trust into our fears and anxiety;
Shine the light of your presence into our loneliness;
Jesus, Light of the World, shine upon us, and within us.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Among the hard things that have fallen out of this pandemical sheltering-in-place is the loss of ability to confidently and definitively plan into the future. So many spaces in our calendars are now neither full nor empty, just scratched with cancellations, and there are no future appointments down the weeks to replace them. A trip to see family? A dentist appointment? Annual check-up? Weekly coffee with a friend? Even a “safe” trip to Costco? We feel stuck. Since we are used to planning for events, appointments, and possibilities, we feel stuck many days!
It might help to get some perspective by reflecting on how many people over the course of history and even in the present day are proscribed in their planning. Who could plan if they are incarcerated or under house arrest or in hiding? Who could plan when they set out, not knowing where they were going or who was taking them? Who can plan if their city is being bombed and occupied by hostile forces days after day? We have enjoyed lives that have afforded us so much latitude, so many choices. And we still have many of them- it’s just that the circumference of our choices has narrowed, and some days we chafe under the restrictions.
Perspective can help us be grateful for the relative backdrop of safety and freedom we live with, even as we daily navigate the unpredictability of the pandemic.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Any new year is a natural time for reflection and resolutions, and in 2021 there is a collective longing for an end to divisiveness, disorder and disease. We deeply desire to live faithfully and fruitfully, to love God more dearly and follow our king Jesus more nearly day by day.
Perhaps, like me, you have found your life rhythms largely interrupted by the pandemic, protests, fires, friends who are ill or dying, lockdowns, elections and other existential distresses. It has been a challenge to continually recalibrate, all while trying to live a with-God life. Do you really want a with-God life, and how badly do you want it? How are you arranging your days so that the natural outcome of how you spend your time and energy results in your becoming the person that God intends you to be? Dallas Willard says, “If you want to live a life in conversation with God you will have to arrange for it.” Jean Nevill asks, “Will my life be a testament of devotion, like Thomas Kelly’s life and work, or a testament of distraction?”
Our spiritual lives are not about perfection—but about the orientation of our hearts and minds, the posture we take before the God of love. We have an opportunity every day to wake up and practice again to view all of life through the filter of the Gospels, the Beatitudes and through a commitment to peace and justice for all. Practice the presence of God—be silent and listen as you begin your day. Develop a rule of life, a road map for how you will live your with-God life each day. Prepare for interruptions. They will always be with us. And trust the Spirit to work in you what is good and pleasing to God.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Below is the prayer one of my pastor colleagues shared with our Covenant anti-racist clergy cohort group this morning as part of the devotional. It is by Nadia Bolz-Weber, an author and Lutheran pastor. She expresses her longing for God to intervene in the agony and corruption of our world (and our hearts and minds). Can you pray this along with the rest of us who are clinging to the Spirit with hope for full restoration in Christ alone?
God,
You once tore open the heavens and descended as a dove upon Jesus and a dirty river full of repentant people.
I don't want to tell you how to do your job, but now would be a good time to tear open the heavens and send down that dove again.
Send your Holy Spirit to stir up repentance in your people:
Who would rather double down than admit we were wrong
Who fill with pride at being one of the few who “know the real truth”
Who only manage to point to others and never ourselves, (and are maybe a tiny bit grateful for the obvious, overt racism, violence and xenophobia of others since it conveniently takes the spotlight off of our own)
I pray that you send your Holy Spirit comfort your people:
Who are grieving our dead.
Whose rightful rage might be corroding the edges of our hearts – (because those hearts are still needed elsewhere)
Who have had to break up with abusers or draw boundaries with unstable people in the past and know in our bodies how ugly this all gets
Who have joyous news they feel they cannot share
Who are trying (and failing) to still love those who voted differently than themselves
Who literally or figuratively find themselves (yet again) sweeping up the detritus of others’ racism, violence, and ignorance
Send down that dove, Lord, but help us look to the needs of our neighbor and not to the escape hatch of heaven to find her.
Amen.
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation
Epiphany
We know the word: a moment of piercing awareness, the sudden jolt of understanding. Imagine, then, that moment stretched out over a period of time. This is the season of Epiphany, a season celebrating the revelation of the Savior, the light of the world.
Epiphany begins on January 6 and is marked by several events and themes in the life of Jesus: the visit of the Magi, the baptism of Jesus, and the wedding feast at Cana. He is the worshiped King of kings, the dearly loved Son of God and the miracle-working Lord of the feast. As we journey through Epiphany, which leads up to Lent, we catch sight of the uniqueness of Christ. This is no mere prophet or teacher—this is the Son of God, the Messiah!
There is an unmistakable missional bent to Epiphany. Jesus, the light of the world, calls us to let our light shine before others (Mt 5:14-16). Drawn by the light of his star, the Magi came and signaled the universal scope of Jesus' mission, where the nations of the world come to worship the King of kings. Epiphany calls us to live God's mission, announcing the good news of Christ's arrival to every culture, and to those who live across the street, bearing the light of Jesus to the nations and to those who share a home with us.
For the grace of God has appeared that offers salvation to all people... the appearing of the glory of our great God and Savior, Jesus Christ.
Titus 2:11-13
Grace and peace,
Anita Sorenson
Pastor for Spiritual Formation